Personality by Yael Yael, Acrylic and Oil on Canvas
61.2 x 53
I am Yael, 32, from Israel
I was born in Romania during the reign of dictator Nikolai Ceausescu . At the time the people suffered greatly under dictatorial rule and poverty prevailed there . Among the laws and prohibitions that he rulled on the Romanian people was the prohibition of abortion . These orphans were called "the children of Ceausescu". I was two days old when I was sent to an orphanage in Bucharest. I moved to a large number of orphanages and after the fall of the dictator (he and his wife were shot in front of a firing squad) when I was 4 years old in 1990 I was adopted . Over the years I have changed educational frameworks and moved between different institutions. At a relatively young age, I was considered mentally ill , my normal hair began to disappear until it disappeared completly and this situation remains , to this day , yes , for 15 years . True , I am aware of the great gap that exists in me , whether it is the misleading view, the awareness of things and in general who I am , but only you know how you go to sleep . On top of that some problems that are not shown on the outside . Common sense collides and the big gap between your reality and practice is enormous . It is not simple but yes , I know how to say out loud - "yes I am mentally hurt" - and really be complete in a difficult reality . Maybe from this place I began to paint and slowly found a comfortable and right place for me , I had never studied any art or other . The work is done on canvas - my abstract works of art , from the first portraits to the abstract paintings , are all the reflection of my feelings , thoughts and worldviews , as well as my imagination , all of which are combined into an act of form and color revived on the canvas . My own portraits , usually black and white , are the main motto of the idea itself, as expressed in the unconventional painting of my complex existence , as an inexplicable balance of black-and-white reality . The rest of my works erupt in a vast variety of form and color . These works may be a kind of antithesis to my first childhood . This is the freedom I have found , the freedom to create something new , every time from the beginning , without any limits and limitations . This is the freedom to create the tremendous chaos again and again , with a surprising order that is planned and calculated at every moment .